[He expects anger; perhaps it's unsurprising that he receives it.
(He gnashes down disappointment. There is one thing that's defined Henry Creel ever since he was young, something which still applies to this day: that lingering desire for connection, his metaphorical tendrils always extending and seeing what others have to offer. Knowing what he drags back will always be lacking, but there is a fragment hope that still lingers in him, the one that he cannot quash, the youngest part of him that just won't die.
The notion of friendship with Steve has all been but rejected. Shattered to pieces thanks to a glimpse into the far-flung future, and maybe it was inevitable. Maybe it's just easier this way, to be met with anger and denouncement. Can he blame him? He'd probably feel exactly the same way. That's just how it is now -- what was slowly built in the last couple of years is simply severed.)
It still takes longer than necessary for him to reply.]
[ it should be unsurprising, it should be expected, but what Steve finds clenched tightly in his chest isn't as simple as he makes it out to be. because yes, he is angry. angrier now that he knows that Eddie isn't. angrier even still because of how hurt he feels about it all. the guilt, the confusion, the feeling somewhere under it all that he'd been betrayed.
he and Henry were friends, weren't they? their connection from Hawkins, from a world where things were at least somewhat similar, being pulled and taken to somewhere wholly new. they'd survived the pit together, they'd survived solvunn and all its wacky weird god shit together, they'd been through this, together, and-
god, Steve hates it. hates that he's angry and he is angry at Henry but also he knows that his anger isn't only Henry. it isn't all Henry. Eddie had explained it pretty well - this back to the future shit, this timeline issue - and Steve feels bad because this would be easier if he wasn't friends.
but also, Steve's lost friends before. lost good friends. these emotions, this anger, is in a lot of ways too too familiar, and maybe that's what he's the most upset with above all. he'd known Tommy his whole life, still felt the loss of that connection like the loss of a limb, but they're different people now.
( except that a voice in the back of Steve's head keeps asking him - is Henry all that different from before? did a look into the future to a fact that hasn't happened yet really change either of them? at all? ) ]
I dunno, henry kinda seems that way unless you got any other crazy insane secret you wanna share just air out all your dirty laundry
Jesus Christ I trusted you, you know I really did fuck I'm so stupid
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i'm sure they will be Fine (no)
(He gnashes down disappointment. There is one thing that's defined Henry Creel ever since he was young, something which still applies to this day: that lingering desire for connection, his metaphorical tendrils always extending and seeing what others have to offer. Knowing what he drags back will always be lacking, but there is a fragment hope that still lingers in him, the one that he cannot quash, the youngest part of him that just won't die.
The notion of friendship with Steve has all been but rejected. Shattered to pieces thanks to a glimpse into the far-flung future, and maybe it was inevitable. Maybe it's just easier this way, to be met with anger and denouncement. Can he blame him? He'd probably feel exactly the same way. That's just how it is now -- what was slowly built in the last couple of years is simply severed.)
It still takes longer than necessary for him to reply.]
Just like that?
im so sad but also....... clenches fist
he and Henry were friends, weren't they? their connection from Hawkins, from a world where things were at least somewhat similar, being pulled and taken to somewhere wholly new. they'd survived the pit together, they'd survived solvunn and all its wacky weird god shit together, they'd been through this, together, and-
god, Steve hates it. hates that he's angry and he is angry at Henry but also he knows that his anger isn't only Henry. it isn't all Henry. Eddie had explained it pretty well - this back to the future shit, this timeline issue - and Steve feels bad because this would be easier if he wasn't friends.
but also, Steve's lost friends before. lost good friends. these emotions, this anger, is in a lot of ways too too familiar, and maybe that's what he's the most upset with above all. he'd known Tommy his whole life, still felt the loss of that connection like the loss of a limb, but they're different people now.
( except that a voice in the back of Steve's head keeps asking him - is Henry all that different from before? did a look into the future to a fact that hasn't happened yet really change either of them? at all? ) ]
I dunno, henry
kinda seems that way
unless you got any other crazy insane secret you wanna share
just air out all your dirty laundry
Jesus Christ
I trusted you, you know
I really did
fuck I'm so stupid